A piece of my life

2009-05-09T08:07:00.001-07:00

THE END

2009-05-09T07:38:00.000-07:00

I had decided not to blog anymore.

From today onwards, i won't be blogging anymore..

So, this will be my last post.

For people who interested and wanna know how was my life for the past 2 years, you may take a look on it. Please forgive that there is such a stupid and immature of me.

9 May2009

Today, the ice-cream which look nice but taste bitter which i never had before....

It is hard for me to swallow the ice-cream... its taste sweetless...

I don't want to eat ice-cream again......

Sleepless for 1 day 1 night its feel like nothing....

starving and vomitting for 1 day also doesn't feel anything...

I feel NUMB.........

In my 20 years lifee, this is my first time that i burst into tears in the public...

And i don't care how people think of me and staring at me....

I think i look like clown...

Whatever la... it is no longer important to me...

2009-05-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

我真的撑得好辛苦

这五个月都不好过

我不知道我还可以

撑多久

我觉得好难受

不舒服

我可以做的只有

不断的控制自己

痴痴的等

默默的忍耐。。。

只求会有那么一天

他会接受我

2009-05-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I feel so sad and bad

I don't know why I cried

I don't know why I become sleepless all these nights

I just don't know why.......

*crying like a hamburger*

Tiring day

2009-05-02T08:24:00.000-07:00

Argh... damn tiring..

didn't sleep and rest for 2 days 1 night...

Don't know how much of my brain cells exhausted

since i had been thinking and calculating

and planning all the way

those figures & ideas were never disappear in my mind

every minutes and second...

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Friday 1 May 2009

Today is public holiday. My usual plan is stay at home and do revision.

but at the end, my plan of today had changed...

I follow my aunt and her family went to banting. The purpose of them to go there is want to try the seafood there which recommend by 'ah xian'. When we reach there around 3.30pm, the restaurant was closed and the worker told us that hv to wait until 5pm. Then we got no other choice and force to wait until 5pm. For the one and half hour time, we went to Morib to hv a walk. The weather is so hot there and i really can't stand. I wonder why people able to play under the sun and take photo at such a place which I consider not really a nice view.

5pm: We reach the restaurant name "ri yue xin". I will never forget their customer services. Its like they trying to foolish us. Actually they will re-open at 6pm and not 5pm.. We leave the place with disappointment and went to other place to have our lunch + dinner.

At night, my aunt bring me to Haagen-Dazs. This is my first time i eat ice-cream at Haagen Dazs. Its really feel good for me.. Addicted to green tea and strawberry flavour of ice-cream.
The flavour of green tea ice-cream make me think of the taste of green tea at starbuck.. miss it so much.. *long for it*
Now, i need to save and couldn't spend on those luxury stuff.. kinda hard but i still need to try my best to overcome..

Reach home around 9.30pm... After putting down my stuff and changing clothes, rush out again.. its very bad that he make me wait for him about half an hour in dark and quiet night. Oh no, i sweat all the way and look so messy... *mb smelly also*

While waiting my fren, its so lucky and unbelievable that i meet him (the guy with black shirt and white pants) again at this kind of place (downstair of my apartment). He live in the same apartment with me that i never think of it. I feel so surprise that he still remember and recognise me... We have a short conversation and i take the chance to ask him those question that i wanna ask before.. kinda surprise of it....

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SATURDAY 2 May 2009

*A light make up to brighten my dull face*

and going to dinner with my cousin family

*nice*

2009-04-30T08:22:00.000-07:00

好茫然，

好困惑，

愿能了解一切，

但你却阻止我

走进你的世界

到底是为什么？

为什么你拒我于千里之外？

我可以感觉到

你的不愉快

真的希望你可以和我

分享你的一切

因为不管发生什么事

我都会陪着你支持你

你沉默我会担心

你伤心我会哭泣

你假装若无其事我会心疼

告诉我

到底发生什么事好吗？

My NEW HAIR STYLE

2009-04-27T22:50:00.001-07:00

~~ MY NEW HAIR STYLE ~~

WAVY HAIR with RED colour highlight

Before highlight

After highlight

28 April 2009

2009-04-27T21:51:00.000-07:00

It is a hot and boring sunday

i really can't stand to the weather

& i feel like melting without air-con

i don't know what to do

since no one date me out

& no motivation to do revision

*trying to find something to do*

i have been call him for few times

but he didn't pick up...

After that, i decide to take a nap

but he comes online...

its been a long time that

i didn't manage to have a good conversation with him..

i feel so lucky today

that he able to spare some times with me

even though you're busying with other stuff

while chatting with me

i still feel happy...

*smiles*

*我想要的其实很简单*

*只要有你的陪伴，那就够了*

2009-04-27T18:27:00.000-07:00

Feelings & words right inside my heart that I can't speak out

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I was born to make you happy

2009-04-19T19:13:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

cause your the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy

I'd do anything
I'd give you my world

I'd wait forever to be your girl
Just call out my name
I will be there

JUST TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I CARE

2009-04-17T05:04:00.000-07:00

I feel glad that I have friends who are concern about me and giving me support when i was down. I don't know what to say to you all besides thank you... I get to receive calls from my friends when i really need a listener. Thanks to those who accompany me when i need and listen to all my complaint... Without you, i really don't know how to cope with it.. I need your caring and support... Trying not to disappointed you... I look forward to the day that going out as you all promise me that you will bring me out... =) *winks*

4th sem

2009-04-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

This is my 4th sem of my degree programme. I was kinda depress that i couldn't do anything well. I can't concentrate in lec and tutorial. I don't have motivation to continue my studies which I feel frustrated on it.

I feel that this is the most tough and hard time that i ever had in college. I hate this kind of feeling which conquer me anytime anywhere. Hold back my tears and I know I couldn't burst into tears in front of them. SMILE SMILE SMILE Laugh Laugh Laugh... like a clown.... would I look better? I don't know...

I don't know why and what actually happen on me... i can't understand!!!

*dark & scary*

2009-04-12T07:47:00.000-07:00

~~ I dreamt of You ~~

## It was so sweet ##

^^ I feel so comfortable ^^

*when I get to hug you*

> however <

@@ Its just a dream @@

--- Back to reality ---

++ crueeel + disappointed ++

// tears on my pillow \\

*i miss you*

Don't avoid me plssss........

2009-04-12T06:47:00.000-07:00

*I got Heart ache again*

it makes me feel hard to breathe again

Nobody know that I had this problem

except Him

but I'm not telling him

anymore

when its pain again

*Silent*

2009-04-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

I wonder why a person can change so fast and easily

How they do that?

the way they behave no longer the same

Cold & Hot will make me sick...

I wonder what was inside your mind?

Tell me what's you think

I don't want to play guess

give me an answer plsss....

2009-04-11T06:22:00.000-07:00

一个人的价值何在

活下去的意义是什么?

为何要那么拼搏?

又为了什么而拼?

为什么要吃饭?

为什么要生活?

为什么要读书?

为什么要工作?

为什么要赚钱?

为什么要娱乐?

为什么要结婚?

为什么要付出?

到底是为了什么?

2009-04-11T06:05:00.000-07:00

*You make me cry*

*You turn my sky into grey*

*You hurt me deeply*

*You took my heart*

and

*You tore it*

*It break into pieces*

*bleeding*

*You never feel sorry*

and yet

*I never blame you*

because

*I still fall for YOU*

2009-04-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

I thought i was able to cope with it

and yet I can't.......

WHY?????????

I wish i never been here...

I wish someone can just bring me go away...

20 years already enough for me!!!!

i don't need more...........................

I'm suffering instead of enjoying.

give me a way to go plsssssssss

2009-04-10T23:17:00.001-07:00

As a friend, i wish i can help you when i know you're suffering. but i don't know what can i do besides accompany you when you are down and sad. I might not be a good adviser but I can be a good listener. I'm glad that you are willing to share your problems with me. When i heard your story, I feel like its reflecting myself too. I understand your feeling more than the words that you said. I tried my best to comfort you but on the other hand i couldn't convince myself with those words. I guess i'm not a suitable person to help you or giving you any advise. Anyway, i will always stand by your side when you need me. Please remember no matter what happen, YOU still HAVE YI QIAN who will support you all the ways!!!

被骗

2009-04-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

才发现，

原来我天真，

是个头脑简单的笨蛋，

这个社会就是那么现实，

单纯的思想，

是无法在这个社会立足。

好难过，

讨厌被欺骗的感觉，

好伤心，

因为我认识了这样的人。

也许我应该学会拒绝，

学习什么是狠。

心软的人只是会被人占便宜。

Cute

2009-04-04T19:14:00.000-07:00

They make me smiles

Miko

Kino

*i love them*

if you love them, they can feel it and love you too

they wont hurt your heart

they are loyal

and will never leave you alone

遗憾

2009-04-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

见不到您的最后一面

成为我一直以来的遗憾

听不到您最后的嘱咐

也是我一生中的遗憾

无法对您实现的诺言

使我无法原谅自己

昨夜，

我梦见了您

是不是清明

您回来看我了呢？

我梦见

我见到您最后一面，

听着您对我说的话，

但是我没用，

当我惊醒时，

我已不记得您的嘱咐。

真是没用！

我好想告诉您我的一切，

想听着您对我说的每一句话

我的心里充满着的除了遗憾

就只有遗憾！

Fraser Hill

2009-04-03T19:01:00.001-07:00

Fraser Hill

*A place that i wish to go to*

Clock Tower

*Things to do there*

Bird Watching

Fraser’s Hill is famous for bird watching activities. It has over 270 species of local and migratory birds.

Jungle Trekking

There are numerous routes of various distance and difficulty.

SUCH AS:

- Hemmant Trail (1000m in length)

- Bishop Trail (1500m)

- Abu Suradi Trail (500m)

- Pine Tree tail (5000m)

- Rompin Trail (500m)

- Kindersley Trail (750m)

- Maxwell Trail (1800m)

Jeriau Waterfall

About 5km North-West of town along Jln Air Terjun. It contains a swimming pool fed by water from the falls.

Other activities such as

The Paddock: Archery, Horse Riding and Woodball

Allan’s Water: Paddle board

2009-04-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

*Can you give me a hug pls*

*hugs hugs*

抱抱

2009-04-03T08:31:00.000-07:00

想要抱抱~~

想念被你抱在怀里的

那种呵护

想念被你紧紧抱着的

那种疼爱

想念被你轻轻拥抱的

那种舒适

想念依偎着你的

那种温暖

想念有你抱抱的日子

因为你让我不再孤单

因为你的陪伴

让我再也不必害怕寂寞

我可以过分的要求多一个抱抱吗？

Never let go

2009-04-03T08:27:00.001-07:00

Myspace Hugs Comments

HuG

2009-04-03T08:22:00.001-07:00

Myspace Hugs Comments

2009-04-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

2 extreme assignment [tax & fa3] due in the same day~~

its kinda stress & tiring

Especially thanks to my groupmates [xuan, fish & aaron]

who did a very good job and considerate

as i didn't contribute much in the assignment

Now have to proceed to another assignment [fm]

which will due on the coming monday

argh...cannot have a good rest during this weekend

& also dsm test on wednesday

and yet i haven't start my revision

damn.....

Troublesome............

I hate myself for unable to control my emotion

emo emo & emo

nothing seems can be on the right track...

i can't do anything except

crying all the way.......

2009-04-02T22:04:00.000-07:00

喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚....

喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你....

喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你....

喜歡在你身邊....因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

朋友，是你高興時想跟他分享的，

朋友，是你不高興時可以給你發脾氣的，

朋友，也是在你沒錢開飯時打救你的，

朋友，你悶得發荒時可以跟你一同發荒的，

朋友，會甘願給功課你抄，跟你一同出貓一同被人罰的，

朋友，也是你買手信時，想買一份大的給他的，

朋友，也是你看見他上線時，想給他 ' 喔噢 ' ！

朋友就是無形中伴你走過風雨，永遠支持你的力量

朋友就是一種無法言喻的美好感覺

朋友就是在別人面前永遠護著你的那個人

朋友就是即使是一點小感動，一點小事情都想一起分享

朋友就是當你抱頭痛哭的時候，扶著你肩膀的那個人

朋友就是當你面對人生挫折時，一直緊握你的那雙手

扶著我肩膀，緊握我那雙手的人

到底在哪里？

*i wish to lay on your shoulder*

2009-03-25T01:06:00.001-07:00

2009-03-24T07:41:00.000-07:00

2009-03-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Frusfrusfrusssssfrusstraaaateeeeeeeedd

FAILURE!!!!

I CAN'T even vomit a word out..

tanyiqian is a STUPID FAILURE...

DAMNNNNNNN....

WHAT THE HELL !!!!!!!!!

WHAT FOR I'm being HERE??

stuuuuupid fellerrrr

aaaaargggggggggggghhhh

isshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

FEEL LIKE knock the head to the wall

wanna PUNCH someone

WHAT A STRESSFUL LIFE!!!

FRIENDSHIP

RELATIONSHIP

LOVE

STUDIES

FAMILY

ALL IS FAKE!!!!

FAKE FAKE FAKE!!!

BULLLSSHITTTT...

CCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

LOSE HOPE...

USELESS.....

NO HOPE NO LIFE NO QIAN

PLS STOP mentally Torturinggg!!!

2009-03-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

*I miss those days of myself with sincere smiles*

But

Now, I lost my precious smile

There is only BODY left without the SOUL

2009-03-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

These few days I was pretty sad

I just couldn't control my emotion

and it is fluctuate heavily

People thought that why I can't be more mature

Going to be 21 years old but

I still react like a small kid

2009-03-21T01:36:00.000-07:00

I wonder why I need to bear all this

WHY I'm the one who suffering

and You're getting so relaxing there

Am I deserve to suffer all the pain?

It is so unfair to me.

WHY THE SAME TRAGEDY HAPPENED TWICE?

I'm getting out of control

2009-03-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

Holding back my tears

I just couldn't cry in the public

And I never get better days by days

I just wish that I do not need to continue my studies

I feel like leaving this saddest place

I wanna have some fresh air

I wanna keep my mind blank

and get rid of all those stupid stuff

I just don't want suffer like this

like a nerd that nobody will pity for

Life is sucks....

2009-03-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

不管我做什么

都是错的

大错特错

他都是看不顺眼

他都要不爽我

我尽心尽力的

去完成一件事

却得不到他的一句安慰

反而让他对我更反感

更讨厌我

也许在他眼中

我已没有价值了

2009-03-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

听着一句句的责备

我的心仿佛

被你一刀一刀的割伤

你的每句话

对我而言

都是刺进我的心坎里

我好难受

原来无法流血的伤

是最疼痛的

这一次真的跌得好伤

当我以为

我爬得很高

眼见就快到到达了高峰

可是在这一刻

也是最艰苦的

当我认为

只要我坚持

勇敢的克服一切

就可以到达最高峰

看见最美丽的世界

原来这些都是自己天真

突如其来的

狂风暴雨

就把我从高处

狠狠的摔下来

这样跌

难道不伤, 不痛吗?

也许凡事都需要

天时，地利，人和

才能得到好的结果

要不然你付出的再多

也只是付诸东流

解脱

2009-03-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

我受不了了

可以让我永远的解脱吗？

2009-03-15T08:42:00.000-07:00

如果你还爱我 Ru Guo Ni Hai Ai Wo - Guang Liang

如果你还爱我 Ru Guo Ni Hai Ai Wo

2009-03-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

Title: 如果你还爱我 Ru Guo Ni Hai Ai Wo
Artist: Guang Liang
Album: 十光年

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了

我知道自己在你心里已不重要

虽然我们曾经相聚过

也许对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了

我知道自己没有勇气道别离

虽然我们曾经拥有过

但是对于你来说

已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早以注定

不能真正拥有你

难道我真心付出一切

只为了承受孤单和寂寞

我知道你不敢对我坦白

是不要看到我的伤怀

虽然你没有说要离开我

我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊

如果你还爱我

你不会对我如此的冷漠

我只能含着眼泪

默默的离开

I took a tired heart away

I know your heart has not important

Although we had gathered over

Maybe for you,

What has not recalled

I with a heavy heart away

I know I do not have the courage Road parting

Although we had owned

But for you,

What has not recalled

Is it as a doomed

You can not really have

Do I really pay all

Only to bear alone and lonely

I know you did not dare to be honest

Yes, I do not see the Sentiment

Although you did not say that I want to leave

I feel I do not belong to you

If you love me

You will not be right so I indifference

How would let me long night wandering alone

If you love me

You will not be right so I indifference

I can only tears in her eyes

The left quietly

2009-03-15T07:55:00.000-07:00

明知道他在利用我

我却无法自拔

却也不知所措

再多的安慰和劝告

都听不进

因为陈仪蒨就是那么的固执

所以这一切痛苦都是自找的

White's day

2009-03-14T09:21:00.000-07:00

今天是白色情人节

对我来说

这已经不再有意义

2009-03-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

真的可以

活在自欺欺人的空间？

这样会比较好过吗？

应该做出怎样的择决呢？

一个人背负着所有痛苦

没有人知道

没有人了解

我不知道可以撑多久？

2009-03-13T04:04:00.000-07:00

我始终还是打不开

我心里的那个结

拥有太多太多的不明白

真相往往都是残忍的

我到底应该怎么办?

曾经爱过你

2009-03-10T08:35:00.000-07:00

歌曲:曾经爱过你

歌手:郑源

作词:刘晓枫

作曲:刘晓枫

傻-傻-的--想--了-很-久

却依然想不出分开的理由

你走的时候用沉默代替了分手

是你太残忍还是我太认真

如果爱情可以瞬间忘记

我又何苦那么的爱你

冰冷的空气

穿透我的身体冰冻我的心

你能看到我留在屏幕上的字

却看不到我滴在键盘上的泪

眼泪的滋味好像苦水我会记着你的好一辈子

为你落下最后一滴泪不再哭泣

也许某天还会笑着想起你写下的日记

都是回忆只希望你可以在你的心里

留--下--我--的--身--影

为你落下最后一滴泪不再哭泣

也许某天还会想起你

落下的泪滴

是为了你也为了证明我曾经真的

------爱------过------你------

2009-03-10T08:30:00.000-07:00

流不出血的伤

是如此的疼痛

哭泣是最好的解药吗?

为何我无法哭泣

为何痛得无法言语

为何无法坚强?

是否应该呆在加护病房

伤心

2009-03-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

努力强忍着眼泪

不让你看见

这时候

才发现自己的心

是阵阵的刺痛

原来掩饰

是可以那么的痛苦

假装

是可以那么的煎熬

2009-03-08T20:47:00.001-07:00

要我忘记你我做不到

我只能默默的守候

等待那一天的出现

也许我已不再拥有机会

也许这牺牲会很大

其他人认为我很傻

我却觉得这一切都值得

2009-03-07T20:48:00.000-08:00

没有你的日子

我不知所措

其实我难过

其实我伤心

其实我。。。

我却害怕让你知道这一切

出自：月亮下的爱情药的一句话

2009-03-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

也许，

他并没有那么好，

你爱着的，

不是当天的他，

而是回忆里的他

出自：月亮下的爱情药

这世间真的有公平吗?

2009-03-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

这世间真的有公平吗?

撞死人的凶手

可以一死了之

免去牢狱之苦

虽然一命抵一命

被害者所受的苦

是无法补偿!!

2009-03-06T07:24:00.000-08:00

当初的开始是错误的

今天的结束是否正确?

在错的时间

与对的人相遇

错过了

就是遗憾

对的人是否会再次

出现在对的时间?

2009-03-04T04:36:00.000-08:00

My Heart DIE away!!!!

LOVE

2009-02-03T05:29:00.000-08:00

The saddest part isn't that you can't together with the one you love but seeing him having fun with someone else.

It is really hurts that the one you love talk to someone else... not with you

It hurts more when he was spending his time with someone else... not with you

It hurts most knowing that he like someone else and you can't do anything....

Love makes us blind.

People tend to be irrational when they fall in love.

Knowing that its hurt but they still go ahead...

What is the taste of love?

2009-01-24T07:47:00.000-08:00

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

What is the taste of love?

LOVE LOVE

LOVE

My bao bei

2009-01-20T07:30:00.001-08:00

~ My Cutie baby ~

Brown bear bear & Debbi

The moments

I cried

I smile

They will always be with me

Forever !!

*I love them so much*

Normal

2009-01-18T22:06:00.000-08:00

Back to normal life~~

I really can't do anything,

Just hoping that nothing else will happen on me again

I just wish to have happy & normal life

*nothing gonna change my love to you*

答案

2009-01-12T10:31:00.000-08:00

我得不到一个答案

也许没有答案也是个答案

幸福背后

2009-01-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

幸福背后

幸福背后隐藏了多少的辛苦

越是幸福越害怕失去

幸福需要用多少牺牲，痛苦，眼泪才能换来呢?

期待

2009-01-08T07:05:00.000-08:00

第一天

等待给予一种希望

令人有用不尽的动力

........................................

......................

............

............................

....................

.............

......

........................

................

第XXX天

愿这份期待不会演变成绝望

Sad

2009-01-08T06:47:00.000-08:00

Another brand new day

when I awoke this morning

I still feel the same

the pain seems never reduce

I try not to think

but my mind keep on having that scene

i try not to cry

but my tears out of control and its drop

I try to be strong

but the fearfulness conquer me badly

I wish to get rid all of these

but I'm incapable to do so.

I'm just a stupid qian.................

Scar

2009-01-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

听着那一首歌

叙述男女主角的故事

让我的思绪零乱

脑海里浮现的

是这两年我们一起走过的日子

也是我们在彼此的生命中

刻上的那感动的情节

这也见证了

你我的感情

并非一朝一夕

你我所付出的

努力，时间，坚持

是任何人都无法体会

尽管再美好

你终究还是伤害了他

狐狸精

2009-01-07T05:29:00.000-08:00

我很讨厌那个"死八婆"！

恨不得她快点消失,

就是有她这么不知丑的贱人

活在这世上

才会让人不得安宁

不要以为自己很美

用水照一下自己的衰样啦！

你只不过是一只做作的狐狸精！

靠近她的人都会中毒!

不知廉耻的贱女人!!

qian in darkness with full of fear~~

2009-01-07T04:46:00.000-08:00

HOW ARE YOU, qian? Are you ok?

I'm fine. I try to put a smile on my face.

I guess nobody can really understand my condition here including myself.

People see my smiling face but they can't see my bleeding heart.

"You must be strong, qian"

Ya, I know! but... action is tougher than words.

I couldn't overcome my fear! I'm in dark.

I really needs someone to pull me out from the darkness.

I'm totally lost.

Does it worth for you to do it?

For me, its worth.

I know all is my fault.

I will learn from mistakes.

I wish to use action to prove to him.

I believe with love, there will be forgiveness.

I wish it will not too late.

but...

Love is two ways communicate

I wish he can work in with me.

Its seems impossible.

No matter how,

I will wait............................ until the day I gone!!

Lollipop

2008-12-31T07:38:00.000-08:00

Today I feel HappY

I got free breakfast & free lunch

from my fren & cousin

I found my Lollipop

Love it so much :)

好担心哟~~

2008-12-31T05:31:00.001-08:00

最近自己的健康

仿佛亮起了红灯

好害怕自己会出事

如果我真的有什么三长两短

我想我应该没有机会

再见他多一面

既然他已不再在乎我

我想我没必要再烦着他

最近这两天

我的状况都不好

我的心都会隐隐作痛

有时痛得呼吸困难

就连心跳都加速

以前也曾有类似的疼痛

但也只有他知道

如今的我应该学习自己面对

好好的保护自己

看医生就免了吧

应该会没事的

最好不要自己吓自己

qianqian

2008-12-29T07:24:00.000-08:00

The LAST one of ME ~qian~ in 2008 !!!!!!

恶心

2008-12-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

有些女人就是犯贱

不好好做人偏偏

就是爱当狐狸精

每天装模作样

到处勾引人

做作的样子

看了就想吐

真的是恶心

味道

2008-12-18T09:07:00.000-08:00

好想要有甜甜的味道

我找不回当初的那份温暖

好想要一杯热巧克力

Love Hurts

2008-10-28T03:55:00.001-07:00

* Tearsssssss inside my heart**

i smile =)

BUT

IT's doesn't mean IM OK!! ='(

你

2008-09-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

爱情就像一杯咖啡

有时幸福有时苦

苦中带甜的滋味

让人回味无穷

这一秒

我不想爱你

但下一秒

我却更加思念你

想你一分又一秒

看着你我心在跳

紧紧的将你拥抱

笨蛋

2008-09-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

(金莎) 很多时候，我因为怕受伤

所以就选择先放弃

我更因为我太爱自由

所以明明渴望爱情

却依然不知怎么让别人进入我的世界

(JJ) 难道。。。我不能给你百分百的信心吗？

你知道我一直有多在乎你

(金莎) 我珍惜这份安全感

却担心他的栖身

所以每天都感觉还是孤独的

我还是需要一个人一个人想一想

MUSIC

冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫

煮不好最简单的早餐

我的生活是一团混乱

维持单身感觉茫然

喜不喜欢习不习惯

我总是说不出个答案

一个人来又一个人往

怎么让他流连忘返

我不想当笨蛋

我在墙上写满渴望

我可以大哭一场

房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强

该属于我任其自然

可是我也要安全感

在某个适当程度的主张

纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

每个早上都想赖床

没有梦是最让人沮丧

我的眼睛盯着天花板

也跑不出任何对象

我不想当笨蛋

我在墙上写满渴望

我可以大哭一场

房间还是空空荡荡

我绝对不逞强

该属于我任其自然

可是我也要安全感

在某个适当程度的主张

纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

(JJ) 这段日子你真的过得好吗？

(金莎) 没有你的早晨，加了糖的咖啡也是苦的

(JJ) 当时我尊重你的要求，所以我离开

但。。这段日子你不开心，所以我就回来了

(金莎) 也许。。我连自己要什么我也不知道

我一个人游游荡荡自由久了也没有了目标

莫名醒来发现墙上已经不自觉地写满了你的名字

(JJ) 单身是茫然恋爱也彷徨

我明白所以我用时间

去证明了这颗心

不会因为你曾经的放弃而改变

(金莎) 难道我真的是个笨蛋

一直错过已经在身边的幸福

(JJ) 我们只是用时间找到我们需要什么

时间让我们认识了自己也肯定了对方

(金莎) 因为你让我知道真正的幸福是什么

这首歌, 是我的最爱我深深的被感动了

心情

2008-09-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

心情好复杂

无法专注

原以为趁这一个短暂的假期

完成所有的事情

但我却心不在焉

而且还病了

我的心装满了

许许多多的

疑问` 心事

这一切

就只能往肚子里吞

搁在心里面

一个人扛还真的好辛苦 !!!

Assignments!!!

2008-09-25T20:12:00.000-07:00

Finally Finally finally ~~~

#FA2 Assignment done!#

but i'm sick now...

There are more assignments waiting for me

F & I - Group Assignment

CPL - Assignment 2

QM - Assignment 2

FA2 - Test

My stamina getting lower and lower..........

It's time for me to recharge during this

holidays

3-09-2008

2008-09-03T07:50:00.000-07:00

After CPL ASSIGNMENT,

I feel exhausted,

STARTED to lose hope in this subject.

AT First, i already doesn't like this subject,

However, i try to put my effort

to fall in love with it

But, our gap seems is too big

until i cant reach it

I cant know IT well... sighs..

Additionally, for FA2 MCT1,

i didn't manage to score well..

HOw can i be like that,

LOSe interest with everything..?/

I need some motivation!!!!!!

3rd September 2008

2008-09-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

This is the birthday boy for today (3rd September)

KAWAII neh!!! (only for cclia)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =)

*Remember to keep your smiles always*

STay STrONG WITH US together!!

I saw rainbow today~~

I think you are the lucky one because rainbow appear in today

BY : QIAN

2-09-08

2008-09-02T05:23:00.000-07:00

2 September 2008

moody =(

for almost a week..

especially today *sad* !!

trying my best to hide it.

*put it inside my heart*

that thing seems make me very unhappy,

why can't i let go?

Actually i do care and mind about it...

*just you don't know*

Im updating my blog instead of

preparing my tutorial works for tomorrow

I do not have any motivation

since im so down...

i feel like want to use sleeping to get me

away from this reality..

*Lying on the bed*

Sometimes

*your hugs and words make me melt*

21-08-08

2008-08-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

21-08-08

~~Rainy DAy~~

Early in the morning already rain heavily

its make me feel cold and sleepy

and feel wanna hide under blanket and sleep

waiting to consult my CPL lecturer at

10am..

while waiting for Michael Moey (lecturer),

I went to support Yixuan for her first pass session

I feel so surprise when I saw 20 plus people inside

After consultation,

Im so disappointed about the consultation..

depress >.<

It seem doesn't help much in my

'CPL assignment'..

Afternoon

SIng K at neway with natorians

celebrate aaron's 21st birthday

A surprise for him

& he really enjoy sing his song

with the volume of as loud as he can...

* HAppY BirthDAy To AaRon *

*I Want listen To RAIN to Sing*

*IT is nICe*

19-08-2008

2008-08-19T05:49:00.000-07:00

~ Sunny Day ~

My decision that insist to go out is right

Today went to shopping

walk here and there about 4 hours

Tired

But I feel happy.. hehe

I bought few clothes and a pair of shoe..

but I couldn't found any nice bag today

It had been a very long time

that I didn't have such a feeling like today

+ HAPPY + SWEET +

18-08-2008

2008-08-18T01:35:00.000-07:00

~~ Rainy Day ~~

*My heart feel warm with your hugs*

## HAve a small surprise ##

SWeet ^_^

@ a small misleading @

~ unsatisfied happen ~

>.<

## Comfort by You ##

- You can't help me to solve my problem -

=.="

Anyway

Feel happy for tHis MoMent =)

Worry~~

2008-08-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

Can somebody tell me what should i do?

I feel so depress...

I need more times...

I need support from all of you..

I need some helps...

I just wishes that I can lay on you.. and

Hoping for u telling me dont be worry,

You will solve everything for me..

15-08-08

2008-08-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

Today I should be very happy because the day I long for finally its come but I didn't. Finally I get the chance to go out with him and he mention that this is the only chance i got. Everything doesn't happen like what i expected. I feel so sad~ feel like wanna cry. Why the only day i got also cant be good and satisfy me?

Bored

2008-08-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

STUDY~~

ATTEND CLASSES~~

EAT~~

SLEEP~~

and also tons of problems to handle...

Everyday repeat the same thing..

Meaningless!!!!

and i feel tired...

WHAT CAN I DO?

一切竟在不言中

2008-08-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

一切竟在不言中

一言一语

都是伤人最深的利刃

令人一生都无法磨灭的伤痕

请别用言语伤害他人的心!!!!

2008-08-04T10:01:00.000-07:00

为什么快乐的时间是短暂？

为何伤心难过总是挥不去，抹不清？

人与人之间关系复杂，

没有办法去衡量。

那一份单纯的交往何在？

对彼此的信任是否存在？

友谊难道不是靠这些而长久？

努力并不代表可以得到一切，

却另人身心感到精疲力歇，

前方的路好迷惑

是否就这样一直徘徊于

那分叉路口

等待奇迹出现？

现实

唤醒一切的一切

强迫着你去面对

真实｀难堪

让人跌跌撞撞！

究竟又有多少人可以被释放？

不公平的事，十之八九，

有就是有，没有也无法抱怨，

这就是命，

注定你要受苦，你就得承受！

希望

是自己编的,

绝望

是自找的，

人的一生都是在自找麻烦！

I miss you

2008-07-30T05:58:00.003-07:00

The day you went away

Im sad that i lost you

You leave me without saying anything

I cant even have the chance to say bye

I regret that I didn't treat you as good as I can

when you still alive

Because of YOU

I had change a lot

I can't accept the fact

that you leave me, You leave all of us

There are a lot of promise between us

that I haven't fulfill

I lose my smile

I lose my happiness

No one can be better than YOU

You are always so caring and patient

And I feel so touch

Each night,

you came into my dream

I feel happy that I sense you're with me

I cried when I awake

I remember your words, smile, kindness

I miss you so much

I will never forget the moment with YOU

Each time I think of you

I will burst into tears

YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART!!!

厌倦

2008-07-29T06:37:00.000-07:00

我的心好难受，呼吸也不正常，失去了往常

的协调。我很纳闷，也不知该如何是好。害

怕与恐惧感真的好难受。此时此刻的我就只

能自己默默的承担这一切。我好懊恼，很烦

，事情一波又一波的接着发生。

各方面的压力不尽使我喘不过气，还令我想

逃避这一切！我看不见光芒，我看不见希望

，这条路真的好黑暗好黑暗，我却独自一人

。我好害怕，好害怕！

我还真的希望在我最脆弱的时候，会有那么

一个值得信赖的人出现，照亮着我，陪伴我

，不让我孤独一人面对这一切。这样的祈求

是否太奢侈？还是我太天真？这世界就是残

酷的，人是自私的，没有人会因为你的遭遇

而同情你。地球是圆的，也不会因为你的生

死，而停止转动！！！真的是可笑！

多一点

2008-07-27T04:12:00.000-07:00

我祈求的

是简单的快乐

慰问，呵护，疼爱

我却

贪心的

要多了一点

孤独

2008-07-27T04:02:00.000-07:00

深夜

寒风阵阵

寂寞在呼唤

微弱的余光

无法温暖

我的心

What I need to do?

2008-07-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

A list of all things that I need to:

be a nice girl --- "人见人爱"

be happy all the time --- "小丑精神"

be generous --- "不拘小节"

be relax --- "苦中作乐"

appreaciate -- "知足"

男女的不同

2008-07-23T05:53:00.000-07:00

男女的不同

女人可以为了一个男人放弃整个世界

男人却为了整个世界而放弃一个女人

一旦爱上了，女人全心全意为男人付出

男人却不会为了一棵树而放弃整片森林

名花有主的女人不能和其他异性来往是理所当然

名花有主的男人与其他异性来往却是理所当然

女人为男人任劳任怨是应该

女人对男人的要求却是无理取闹

女人体谅男人是必然与一种须要

男人体谅女人是过分与不合理

女人小气就应当是小气

男人小气却说成关心

A dream

2008-07-22T12:22:00.000-07:00

meng yi chang -

SEM 3

2008-07-22T11:56:00.000-07:00

Corporations and Partnership Law

Financial Accounting 2

Finance and Investments

Quantitative method in business

It's gonna start soon!!!!

Count down = 5 days

SEM 3, I'm coming.... The feeling now is confused. What should I do? WHAT can I DO? The first time I got a feeling of cower. I need a place for me to hide.

Everything in my heart had mix up. I lost my sense...

*I need some strength*

There is a gap between us~~

2008-07-22T09:00:00.000-07:00

Already few days... I couldn't fall asleep. Can someone else tell me what is the reason? It make me feel so down. I gonna become a big 'panda' soon. What can I do?

During this short holidays, I had thought a lot of ours problems and what actually happen to us recently. I really feel that we couldn't stay well together. What is the problems that caused this to happen? Each time you throw this on me, "you're the one who caused it to happen!"

I think we live in two different type of world. You got your own thinking but I also have my own feeling. Ours thinking and concern are totally different. What I thought is important but you will just treat it like a joke. Last time, you would respect me and be more considerate but now you treat my patient towards you like a behove. As time goes on, you ask for more and more. The reason I chosen you is because I thought we have same target and we able to help each other in our life. But now, it seem like it is only my own wishful thinking. In fact, you look more cheerful and happy without my appearance. *You don't need me in your life*

"Distant keep us apart, Time brought us together" --- This is what you wrote to me. Now, I can't sense time brought us together. I only can sense that time will keep us as far as it can...

"Every moment spend with you, Is the moment i treasure" --- I wonder you still remember this. I also can't feel any moment that I spend with you, you would treasure. It is just like I'm bothering you.

There is a gap between us until I can't reach you. I really don't know what can I do in order to maintain the relationship. I feel kinda tired and no more stamina to continue. No matter how much I try, you'll never know, and I get nothing in return but only those hurting words and hits.

~~~Please tell me what to do~~~
open one eye and close another one????
do not care about it???

*endless love towards you*

Sigh~~

2008-07-11T12:30:00.000-07:00

我真的不知道我到底做错了什么，他要这样来对待我。一次又一次的重覆着，仿佛永无止境。这个恶梦还需要维持多久，我也不清楚。只有当事人才晓得。
我真的希望有个我向往的日子，开开心心的过日子。他却无法满足我的要求。
我一次又一次的不在乎，却成为了他得寸进尺的理由。我的仁慈就成了伤害我最痛的利刃，真是讽刺！这就叫咎由自取，难听一点的就叫“活该”。
就只怪自己笨，最后还得来一句“你没头脑”！

教训：待人过多的好会成为对方的理所当然！
忠告：请不要把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上！

Two years before and NOW

2008-07-11T09:47:00.000-07:00

2006 & 2008

GET READY

2006

2008

What is the conclusion?
Am i look different with two years before?
i think so...

2008-07-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

Things need to be done:

Drink at least 2litres water per day
Sleep before 11pm
Eat as much as I can
Become fat
Save money
Clean my room
Wash my clothes
Prepare clothes for SEM 3
Buy a new shoe
Buy a new bag
Relax and fold my lucky star

Problems

2008-07-08T21:47:00.000-07:00

Argh... feeling sick now. I guess i had a little of fever as i can't sleep for whole night. Problems.. problems.. problems.. that conquer me non stop. i wonder when it will disappear from me...

*Doctor, can you give some medicine that can make me unconscious for a period of time?*

i guess no such doctor will allow their patient to do that... this is always an immature and negative thinking of me. For me, to avoid those problems, sleep will be a best way. During sleeping time, you will be totally separate from reality, that you wont know what is happening. Sleeping is always a good medicine for me in whatever problems. but now i cant even sleep. Why so cruel? Why wanna take away my only medicine that help me better?

*endless tear *

现实

2008-07-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

音乐的旋律，
是如此的美妙，
令人情绪波动。

人生的旅途，
遇上挫折重重，
令人哭笑不得。

爱情的海洋，
充满酸甜苦辣，
令人又爱又恨。

A piece of my life

Tiring day

My NEW HAIR STYLE

28 April 2009

I was born to make you happy

4th sem

被骗

Cute

遗憾

Fraser Hill

抱抱

Never let go

HuG

解脱

如果你还爱我 Ru Guo Ni Hai Ai Wo

White's day

曾经爱过你

伤心

出自：月亮下的爱情药 的一句话

这世间真的有公平吗?

LOVE

What is the taste of love?

My bao bei

Normal

答案

幸福背后

期待

Sad

Scar

狐狸精

qian in darkness with full of fear~~

Lollipop

好担心哟~~

qianqian

恶心

味道

Love Hurts

你

笨蛋

心情

Assignments!!!

3-09-2008

3rd September 2008

2-09-08

21-08-08

19-08-2008

18-08-2008

Worry~~

15-08-08

Bored

一切竟在不言中

I miss you

厌倦

多一点

孤独

What I need to do?

男女的不同

A dream

SEM 3

There is a gap between us~~

Sigh~~

Two years before and NOW

Problems

现实

出自：月亮下的爱情药的一句话